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Monday, June 28, 2010

The 1st week of "The power of a Praying Wife" BY Stormie O'Martian


Well its ALMOST payday!!! Geez these weeks seem to drag when its time to get paid! Oh well I got a little accomplished today. As much as I can do when we are out of completely everything, dish detergent, laundry det. etc. Just one of those days.

I am just now getting the hang of this whole blogger thing, and I am loving following and reading all the blogs. This is such a constructive way to relate with other mil-spouses! Something amazes me, when I can read other blogs and feel like I have been or can be in their same exact predicament! I love that we can be so connected yet so far apart at the same time!



Well 31 days until our big PCS yes, I said the dreaded letters. Ft. Campbell ready or not here we come. like I said before I am so overwhelmed because in a month we will move to a new place, we still have yet to find a place to live. I applied for base housing but in order to do it from another state we have to fax or scan DD forms, LES'S, and birth certificate's etc. I am sure you more seasoned Mil-Spouses know all about this process. There is something so uneasy about the unknown. I will overcome and accomplish what is necessary. Gee cant help but to think this would be so much easier if I had my husband to help me. I know that this AIT is almost over and we will be together for a while, before he Deploys... UGHHHH I hate that we have already been apart for a year (not completely apart) but we get a few months together before he is actually gone for a year! I love to hate or hate to love ARMY life! I know that by the sacrifices we make now will pay for the future we so badly want for our children, but at the same time its a double standard with me because now my daughter (6 years old) is telling me she wants to be a strong Army girl. I know right Bless her heart but correct me if I'm wrong... aren't we doing this so she wont have to? I mean don't get me wrong we LOVE our country, but I don't want to sacrifice my children too!!! Anyways, I am trying to deal with this all to the best of my ability... which is not adding up in my book... but I GOT THIS.


So, I started this bible study, I have done it once before... but our trials at that time were night and day to our current situation. Today I learned that as his wife I must Humbly, willingly, DIE to self. Though this may be painful it is completely necessary in order for my life to progress instead of regress.

Matthew 10:39 says;
"He who looses his-self for my sake will find his life."

This is my prayer...
Lord,
give me a new clean heart and right spirit before you. Give me a new joyful, loving attitude and Lord when I start to doubt this remind me to SHUT UP , AND PRAY!

I have found that I often sabotage my own prayers but not praying from a "right" heart. If my heart harbors resentment and bitterness, than that is what will come from my mouth.My heart needs to be clean so my prayers for my husband aren't compromised. I need to pray in regards to how God See's it not how I think it should be!
Psalm 66:18

"My sin separates me from him."

I am about to embark on many new journeys, I am proud of the life we are building for our children and ourselves. Although there are many unknowns, they merly exist because I am sure of the one thing that makes sense : He will never leave you or forsake you!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Today was a learning experience.

Hello, I guess as my first Blog ever... I should tell you a little about my self and how my family and I have gotten where we are now. I am Candice Johnson, and I am twenty-six years old. I am married to Jeremy and we have the two most loving and intriguing children ever imaginable. Katelyn Abigail is 6, wow that's a realization hard to swallow!! James Joseph is 4, and hes defiantly giving me a run for my money since the day he was born. I love all three of them with my heart and soul. I am originally from Naples, Fl. yes they actually do call us Krackers.. ha ha. Born and raised! My wonderful Husband is from Ellaville, Ga. hes a Peach! Wow, for your information, thats actually the smallest town I have ever had the chance of seeing.

Funny story Jeremy and I met at Felda Motors ports Park. If your wondering what that is it's a place where people (rednecks) take their trucks and 4-wheelers and Pay to play in the mud!!! So My good friend Marsha and I decided to take a ride out there and see what kind of trouble we could get into at the time. I was 19 years old and carefree. Long time ago now but thinking back to the first time we met is putting the biggest grin on my face! So after about half a day in the sun covered in mud, I see this beautiful F-250 4X4 ( which I later nicknamed Big Daddy) in the middle of this huge mud pit doing donuts around a half sunken 4-wheeler. I mean the tires stood almost as tall as me. I looked to may left and told Marsha " I don't care who he is he's gonna be mine." Spoken like a true rebel without a cause. Marsha says to me " How do you know hes not married or something?" My response to that was the best decision of my life. " I don't know yet, but I am going to find out.

Needless to say almost eight years later and we are still going strong. My husband just within the last year became a proud member of the United States Army!! His MOS is 15 Y which is an Apache helicopter Armament, Electronic and weaponry. Incredible job to have in the Military. I've absolutely been overwhelmed with pride and admiration for the man he has become. An American Soldier... HOOAH! Sorry sometimes it just comes out. I am an Army wife and I will stand behind him until the day we die!! I do have to say that this, this life has not come without hurdles and ticking clocks!!! Best way to put the whole "Hurry up and wait" lifestyle!!

As of last summer we have had the challenges of BCT- Basic Training, 12 weeks with little to no contact at all! Feb 13, 2009 Jeremy completed and graduated from Ft. Jackson,SC. this had to be the first of many proudest Army wife moments. I cried and shouted and just had the most overwhelming sense of pride for the choice my husband and so many others have made for their country. We are currently living in VA. near Ft Eustis, where Jeremy is in the last stages of AIT- technical training. Twenty- nine weeks and a few days we will have been here by the time he graduates. By far being close to my husband wasn't the bad choice everyone warned me it would be. I do have to say this though being so close yet so far away because of his schedule is by far the hardest part. We are lucky to see him twice a week, and most weekends if everything goes as planned, (which if u know Army...nothing ever does)! There's grueling hours for him. He is a night Gator, this means he goes to school from 1600 to 0100. He is up at 0630 and has PT and then usually tries to catch up on sleep. I am amazed by his ability he never ceases to amaze me and I cannot imagine my life with out my Big Daddy.

As I get older I have begun to realize every day is a new challenge. Today especially, the world has become a place where people take for granted what the important things really are in life. For me the most important things in life are right in front of you.. reach out and appreciate the little things like the mountains or the stars. Most of all sweating the things in life that don't matter take from u the things in the world that do matter.

Books in my thoughts...

Candice's book montage

Schindler's List
Battlefield of the Mind: Winning the Battle in Your Mind
The Power of a Praying Wife
My Sister's Keeper
Something Borrowed
The Notebook
Sense and Sensibility
Jane Eyre
The Time Traveler's Wife
Pride and Prejudice
Twilight
Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl
A Time to Kill
The Shining
The Kite Runner
Under the Tuscan Sun
The Memory Keeper's Daughter
The Secret Life of Bees
The Lovely Bones
Memoirs of a Geisha


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